I got back from the seaside around two weeks ago and am currently in a trip to France (my real life father works here so I sometimes get to come for a few weeks). Third time I visit France overall, and it's a really nice place from what I seen. I'm in a nice little city called Metz, pretty close to the border with Germany.

Have to say it's good to visit the civilized world from time to time, and sad not to get to stay in it. I don't consider Romania a country any more, more like a forgotten village of ignorant people trying to simulate a civilized existence (at least we have good internet though). I'm still a little surprised when I see a country where people have fun activities, are a bit nicer, the city is clean and everything's in place and you don't feel you hate everything around yourself when you go outside. But yeah... over a clear and unbreakable law of the universe concerning some people, nice things can only be had temporarily whereas bad things are the default permanents one must live with.

Still trying to learn French at the moment... rather in the hope I may find some French furs in the area (would likely be too shy for a real life meetup still). I wonder why I could never find anyone from France in english online communities though, since many French people know english pretty well. Anyway I'm still here for at least two weeks and will be online from my laptop.

Since I said I'll post some pictures from the seaside (about two years ago heh), my journal is inactive and real life doesn't always look that ugly, here are some photos from the place I'm at now :) Btw, I never seen a picture management system worse then LiveJournal's >.>

Yeah, I'm posting again after 8 more months of inactivity, now with more news about my horrible life and better english than last time. Given I have more active friends on LJ than last time (such as my beautiful sister calientra and lovely mother spectravixen) I thought it would make things easier to write about myself once again. Currently I am at the seaside, and about to enjoy being here for two more weeks. I also renovated my LJ page a bit for this revival :)

As expected, things haven't been going too well for me, which of course means they have been going worse. I feel that my power to keep living on this world is coming to an end, that every day of my life is growing to a horrible curse, and my only wish at this point is for my life to end as soon as possible. There are several reasons why I feel this way... my body's parents who's daily presence makes me feel stressed, the governments that lead this world which are making everything difficult, impossible and illegal each day, my inability of adapting to today's society and on top of it all I need a real fur more then I ever have.

As of recent I realized that all doors in this world are closed for me, due to not having the necessary power to 'serve' this society and obtain money, an object that's needed for making any move other then breathing. I am condemned to living in this house with my body's parents and to a life where the only thing I am allowed to do is eat and take a walk. I was planning on moving to America and living with spectravixen , but the society of our days will make sure that won't happen due to how difficult it is to obtain a citizenship. Apart from that I realize that I could never adapt to living with anyone in this life, sadly including kin until we return to our true selves. I am still not used to interacting with people offline, and to me any unknown person in a human body is like a scarecrow.

The factor which has been hurting me most though is my increasing dislike for humans and my increasing love for furries. Yesterday I had a moment in which I hated humanity to my worst. That happened after a friend of my body's parents told me what I needed to know to be sure that I could never get to the US. I felt like slaughtering and destroying every single human being... for being the way they are, for having the society and governments they have. At the same time my feelings for furs have gotten stronger, and my bond to them bigger. I love anthros more then I thought I could ever love anything, and I swear that if even one existed on this world I'd kill to become their slave in any way possible for all of my life. Every time I browse through furry artwork I feel that nothing could be more painful then not having such a beautiful creature to be with, and touch, stroke, kiss, give into. The sadness of missing them will probably destroy me before anything else could. Why I feel the way I do... for me it's the instinct of my kin nature, who and what I am.

Either way, there is a possibility that all of it may soon end. My heart problems seem to still be there, and after seeing details about similar case on TV I suspect I already had a minor heart attack a couple of months ago. I hope that someone may allow me to leave this life soon, and go to a better world where I can have my real kin and where there's freedom and the possibility to live without corrupt governments.

Please feel free to drop a comment here, I'm trying to see how many users still access my journal and if it's worth to use it more often. Love you all, kins and furs.

Wanted to say hello to everyone for the new year (5 days late but oh well) and check what has changed around LJ since last time I've been here. I still use it from time to time and didn't abandon it, even though I haven't posted here for over 6 months now. Haven't been feeling like writing so much lately and usually hanged around IRC and messenger, but maybe things will get more active here as well.

Ok. So now after I just discovered I have a bunch of mental issues like I wrote in my last entry, since the last week I found out I also have two physical issues with my body, which this time I'm really not happy at all with. It was to be expected with my situation really, but still I wasn't really expecting to have them so early yet.

So, what are these issues about; For more then a month I kept feeling a pull in my chest on the left side at times, exactly over heart. From the way I'm feeling it, I appear to be having some heart problems, most likely related to having too much "grease" on my heart which of course comes from lack of movement and physical activity. My second issue is something my irl mother noticed yesterday while I was leaning forward; my back appears to be slightly deformed on the right side, where I also keep experiencing pains for more then a month. Sometimes it's even hard for me to sit down without feeling uncomfortable from back pains, while I constantly feel general pains in my back every second for some time (small ones though). This one happens because I spend my time on a chair all day and the only time I get up and go out of my room is when I go eat, go to the bathroom or go sleep.

Of course I have some other issues I already knew about too, such as my bones making weird noises and hurting if I even move too much, or that I can hardly walk without holding onto the walls any more at times. I can agree with everyone that all of these issues are caused precisely by me not going out to do something and just sitting down on a chair all day, but like most people know the reason I do this is because there isn't anything for me to do outside of my room. I'm also not much into sports and activity, and as it's clearly known I'm not by far a fan of the "get born -> go to school -> get a job -> get a family -> die" style of life, and that isn't an activity for me.

Technically it's my fault because I do nothing for myself, but I personally blame it on being born here where I shouldn't have been, and born in a place where I have nothing else to do then stay in a room all day and either watch TV or stay at my computer. I guess I'm both a little scared and sad about it, basically more sad then scared but yet I can't blame myself I had to choose to live like this as I don't feel like I had any other choice. On the other side I wonder if I would be to get judged if I die because of a heart attack or something else, and be accused of "killing myself" though without the direct intention of doing so. I'm also worried I could get paralyzed from issues or something else, but meh.

For now I'm waiting to go to some specialists and medics and see if they can fix these things. Later on I guess the issues will be back once I return to sitting down all day long, but like I said, if no other choice is given I'll just find a corner, sit there and lay there forever. Final thing I hope at this moment is that if there is a fate watching from above, they will see what being so careless and ignorant can cause to people. And here I'm talking about the fact that I, as a, kitsune was born in a place on this world where I could never have any friends or people I could want to meet, and noone else like me. One day I hope such things will get better controlled, though at this moment I have the feeling I need to make someone pay, though that will slowly pass.

So I recently discovered something new about myself that is something quite... well, interesting to discover all of a sudden. They're things I realized for quite some time now but didn't know they're known issues that actually have a name and description. To put it shortly, after coming up on some info and reading a few descriptions, I discovered I have several mental disorders.

Till now I discovered at least two mental issues that I have, the first one being Asperger. For those who don't know what it is, asperger is basically a lighter form of autism. It doesn't cause a person to be unable to talk, think or live normally at high levels, but it causes them to be less able to focus, have a different perception of reality and sometimes do things such as talking incorrectly, not hearing what other people say, ect. I noticed for example how I was once talking to someone and I was unable to focus, and kept looking in another direction and talking nonsense which probably left the person thinking I was drunk or something.
There are many other things I noticed too, such as the way I permanently perceive everything around me as a dream (caused by my mind being slower with certain things, my awareness is much more limited), the fact I'm extremely tired all the time, and other general experiences which clearly prove it's a medium form of asperger and I do indeed have a light form of autism. Some may likely be able to notice it from the way I write and type too.
Asperger is something you are born with and there is currently no cure for it. Even if there was I would never take one however, because, as weird as that may sound, its something that I enjoy living with because it allows my mind to live in this state of warmth and relaxation which is something that is very nice and I would never want to give that away. I believe that in my situation, it's caused by what I am as my otherkin self, and the fact that I am spiritually a kitsune using a human body which causes such problems with my mind here.

The second issue I have is Anxiety Disorder. This one is more common, though once again I don't have the lightest form of this issue either. This explains a lot of my feelings, constant fears and depressions. Till now I considered that all of them are my fault any my fault only, and that I brought everything upon me. That's probably not false but still, it's once again another genetic issue that I was born with (I am not perfectly sure here as I may have gotten it over time rather then from birth).
In almost all situations, I cannot do absolutely anything about it. The only solutions are medicine (such as anti-depressives) and/or seeing a psychologist. Given how much I like being around people, I would much more rather stick with the medicine. If I don't want to go insane I will probably need a good bunch of meds in the near future.

So what now? Truth is that discovering these made me feel much better, because now I know it's a known issue that's causing this and it wasn't my fault for everything that was happening to me. Both of these issues make it very hard for me to interact with people however... and even if I don't really care about that much it might cause me some trouble in life and stuff. But until then, I'm still here and well, and now that I know about it I hope I can get myself to see things another way and get rid of some of the worries I have.

Yeah... I know I've been really silent in the past few months as I haven't used LJ a lot. Just posting to let everyone know I'm still around and still using this account and all. Wish something more exciting would go on LJ so I would get to post here more often *nods*

So yes... it's almost christmas time it seems. Time runs really fast sometimes... at least in my current perception of it. Mostly spent my time like every day, though I had some stuff to get busy with since last time I posted here... from helping and testing with SL Opensim most of the day, to taking the driving lessons for getting my drivers license irl, and about to go to the last lesson the day after tomorrow, after which I can try to give the exam next year.

So... what else happened? Well I got to talk with my kitsune family and my beautiful mother a little more, which has made me very very happy. I also decided to still poke around the Linden grid from time to time until Opensim is more complete, despite the violence that went (and still goes on) in there. As for feeling better, no, I haven't been feeling better at all.

Today was a very interesting day. I woke up at 9:30 am after going to bed at my usual hour of 4am to go to today's driving lesson, which was fortunately short thanks to the water for washing the window freezing in its tank and the window getting dirty all the time. After the lesson I got back home to get ready for the theoretical driving lesson, which was just after a few hours. The same story as yesterday repeated however, and the power grid failed and left parts of the city without electricity again. The only difference was that this time it lasted 6 hours, while yesterday it was only 3, even in the middle of the city... though I handled myself with candles and flashlights.

I went to the second lesson soon after, which I also did only by half as the power failure reached there soon after and left us in the darkness in the middle of the lesson (it was so funny when the people at a mini-market I was passing next to where selling at candles like it was a market from ancient times and the shopkeeper looked like a witch ^_^). Anyway, shortly before 9pm the power came back on.

Well, today wasn't actually that simple though *sighs*. My day was honestly a nightmare. Firstly, before I left for the 2nd lesson, I suddenly found myself called on a channel on irc, on which a bunch of people who hacked the channel and became admins and operators called me at random apparently, and made me handle an entire hour of bashing, flames and insults, for being a fur, for our beliefs and what not. I didn't know what was happening at first, eventually thought someone may have gotten drunk or on drugs or depressive or something. Anyway, after an entire hour of violence and rotten kinder garden "conversations", I left my computer in need of sedatives and carried on with the rest, but now I started having creepy things happening to me at the end of the night.

While I was sitting in the darkness waiting for the power to get back on... well I was also very tired all day due to waking up early and all, so I was kinda in-between. I sat there and was beginning to fall half-asleep while I closed my eyes and left my mind imagine by itsself. I starting getting images with my eyes closed, basically combinations of what my eyes seen during the day. I was still awake though just disconnected from real life and... well this is interesting; the things that came in my mind are basically the same annoying dreams I have at night. I tried to examine why that's what I get, and why I don't get taken to the places I want to when I disconnect. I started to creep out, as I was seeing people I didn't like... and a zombie at the end who had a white face which was changing shape and becoming scary and ugly, like a devil. I stopped and opened my eyes after that. Each time I get taken to such places like when I dream at night, I am depressed and I don't like it at all. I also sometimes hear cusses and yells in my head, and see people beating each other and stuff when I close my eyes. Really don't know where I got that from :(

Well after that in the next hours, I started feeling as depressed as it could get. The demon/devil/spirit that possesses me and tortures me like this since so long had its worst power now. I kind of lived the next hours as a nightmare, though of course I was acting perfectly normal and all. I hanged around on irc and messenger from my mobile, feeling the need to ask my family for help, but I knew noone could help me and I would only complain and annoy people. I'm getting very certain I have become the feeding slave of some evil spirit, that tortures me that way on a daily program, since so long.

I'm afraid my kitsune self is in danger, and I may risk being hurt badly if nobody helps me soon. I know it is not just me being scared of the world like my mother believes. It may have started from that, but now I'm possessed by this thing that tortures my mind every day and keeps me in pain, even physical pain at this point. I usually hang around on irc trying to ask for help, but don't know how and what to do. Anyway, as long as I'm still alive I will be around and probably get better, if I'm lucky.

Anyway, yesterday night I decided to try and attack it through imagining. The first thing I tried was something I heard from other kins around me; I imagined my kitsune side and my human side next to me, the kitsune eating and devouring my human self (in a non-gory and non-painful way as I deeply dislike that), and the more it was consumed, the more I could feel it disappear from me and feel myself being more and more kitsune until there was nothing left of it any more and I was fully one. The second thing I tried afterwards was imagining myself in a large empty space, helped and exorcised by many other kitsunes, ripping the other side stuck to my kitsune one as I was converted in the process. Once it was fully ripped apart from me, any energetic or spiritual link with it was slowly being cut off and broken as the other kitsunes started charging me with kitsune energy and shifting my core. Once it was ready, I imagined them closing the open aura that was thorn apart in the process around my body so that nothing else could get in any more, afterwards my ripped-apart side who was now perfectly separate from me being eaten by another kitsune and gone either into nothingness, either somewhere where I would never get to see it again... most preferred as if there really is another soul that is possessing me, I wouldn't want to kill it or destroy it but do want it as far away from me as possible and to never come back.

In the process of these exercises, I became a bit agitated and felt the need to move and turn around, slightly suffocating too as I felt most of the fighting to push it away and had to focus on it to make it as real and efficient as possible. I am unsure if these where the best methods as I just built them randomly, but they seem to have worked well together with some suggestion. Since my soul is still darkened and most of my feelings are still dead, I haven't felt much and just noticed what was happening and did what I should. Probably that was lack of focus though, limited by my current power.

After I finished this, I temporarily managed to feel myself for the first time having only my kitsune side, and only being my kitsune self without anything else interfering. Of course now, a few exercises are not enough for a full change, and need to be done repeatedly like a medical treatment. The main thing is imagining yourself and getting yourself used to the way you want to be. Well that is kind of weird to me cuz... that actually means you can make a spirit inside of you be gone only by what you imagine yourself as? And you can reshape the form of a soul, create or remove multiple sides of yourself only with your mind? I got used to the idea that a soul is something much stronger... or probably what I had was only an imaginary self that I created by instinct and reflex along this life, like I said. Anyway, it felt really nice to feel free and like existing correctly for the first time. It is difficult to focus and suppress it every moment, but I hope that by trying, I can make it be gone.

Now, the reason why I had this side on me is not only it trying to possess me and being too hard for me to remove. The feeling that kept this side tied to me, alongside reflex and the fear of change, is that having both sides made me feel like I have a "larger complexity", and when around other kitsunes I seem to feel different in a way... not feeling like a kitsune completely but being next to them and so drawn to them. It was probably a false sense of "getting used to" my mind created in time, so once I can fully remove it I will be really happy. I so much wonder how it's like to fully feel as your normal compatible self.

Anyway, sorry for the lengthy post as I have this tendency to write so much on things. If anyone wants to give me advice on this or tell me more about it, always feel free to leave me a reply here. Thank you all so much for the support, kitsune family and friends.

Well, mood has been mainly shifting for me recently, even though I mostly stayed in my normal state of darkness or nothingness. Posting from my country house at the moment, will be back the day after tomorrow normally. Currently busy *upgrading* my house in this trip... or well, watching others do it more precisely, as I'm still too tired and lazy to even move or stand up most of the time >.> so no problem of me putting planks and hitting needles too much, though when I had to hit a wall with the axe to tare down the coverage, I kind of enjoyed it a lot ^.- A tire blew on the way too when we came here. We stoopped in front of a house and changed the wheel, though I was actually busy filming with my phone to keep the "memory" in the list. Received some thanks for making the effort of taking two steps and pulling the handbrake though. Anyway, its by far much more relaxing here then staying locked in that apartment from day to night. I'm also free of the bad dreams and many bad states here, and get a far better chance to relax too.

I went to bed yesterday night, still feeling like I generally do. I curled up, once again feeling that so strong need from deep inside my heart to hug something good and warm... thats not in any way human, but just furry, anthro... how I imagine that other kitsunes are like back there on the astral plane. I just wanted to hug a beautiful vixen, ladyfox, that would understand me, know how I feel, and just hug me tightly every night and lick me untill I would slowly fall asleep and dream together with her.

I just continued laying relaxed, trying to imagine what I could. I started thinking of a big giant fox, laying on its belly on a bed, while I was there together with it, looking at his giant adorable foxy form, being so tiny to him/her. I imagined how it would feel like to sit under it under its belly, covered by his fur and body, squeezed there so tightly with every breath he takes, listening to his heart beat so loudly, just wanting to hug around him but being too drained and energetically touched in such a beautiful way to have the power to do that any more. Your sleeping under his chest at his neck, as he/she puts its muzzle over you and covers you there safely, stretching its neck and letting out a sharp foxy sigh that simply melts your heart. If you would feel cold or scared and started to shiver, he would just lift his muzzle and lick over you a few times, smile and tell you its ok and that he's there with you, covering you more in his warm fur and breathing warmly on you. If you would ever need to talk with him, you could just ask, and tell him how much you love him, and all the sweet things you feel like telling him, while he lays there smiling almost sleeping, running his big soft paw over you, listening to your sweet words you would say to him.

You can move, hug him, tell him that you're scared... he doesn't mind, just keeps you there with him and tells you its ok, and just to sleep there in his fur with him. After a while, you just feel the need to bond more with him as you hug so tightly, slowly starting to play with his big yiffy parts, squeezing you even more tightly and getting you wet in his foxy fluids in the end, making him sleep so happy and relaxed there, while you play with yiffing him so warmly, lovingly and happily, with your heart so open. Later, you just go to sleep there under his belly, sleeping hugged tightly around him, having sweet furry dreams together. You're happy there, you can do what you want. When you wake up, you know you're still under his muzzle, realms away from the closest human being, in a land only of furries, living every day just cuddling safely, in warmth and love with the other mystical and magical creatures that live there.

There are so many beautiful things that could exist, especially when you imagine they may be true soon one day, when we will live in a world where real magic will exists again. This was mostly a story I wrote on the moment, over the thoughts and feelings I sometimes have at night, that I just felt as a sweet idea to post here too, after composing it in my mind yesterday before falling asleep. And with the help of the trance music can create, its easy to write something down without thinking or having any worries of the type "Thats too exaggerated, that sounds too stupid". Still so different when lived and imagined and felt  then when wrote, but I wanted to share it with everyone too. Been years since I wrote a story, but I can still write small thoughts like these sometimes, when I know other kits will read them and it will make them so happy to imagine that with me. Stories like there are easy to get into, when your kitsune side takes over... one of the very few moments in which I can feel so happy.

But yes, I hope you liked. Once my mind will be unlocked again out of darkness, and I can learn to travel more clearly on the astral / in my mind , I can do anything I want with other real furries, and be able to feel them, hug them, and enjoy being with them again. Feel free to tell me if you liked, or to share your feelings. Im sure mine will take me further when I am given that luck, and the right to have a dream with them in which I can feel that warmth and love so clearly.

Yes. This is something I have been planning to do for a while, after I have been revolted of having friends of mine, and myself in the past, assaulted by Linden Labs for being on the main grid, just because of being under the age of 18. They want to keep on banning minors only for being there, who have never done anything to them, believing they have the right to judge what they can and cannot do. I will be posting the topic I made on the Second Life forums here, and you can get and idea of what I am talking about. I have mainly decided it is time to act fast after I have read this



Firstly, I should say hello to everyone as this is my first post on this forum, though I have been on SecondLife for exactly an year now, and mostly know everything there is to know about SL.

This topic is a topic over a very delicate subject, that I wanted to talk about for a long time, but I didn't because I wasn't sure if Linden could delete/suspend my account for talking about this, as they have recently gotten everyone to fear them. I will apologise from now if I will be rude against Linden here, as I am *extremely* revolted against some things that they did and keep doing, that I believe shall not remain in silence any more, which I will discuss in a second. I would be really grateful if you could take your time to read this, especially Linden, and decide to join me and act against what is happening on SL right now. Be warned that this post is extremely long, due to the fact I wanted to mention everything very clearly, so I apologise for that too.

So, I shall begin; This topic is about what Linden Labs has been recently doing against so called "underages", who made the decision to join the main grid and hang with everybody else there. As many of you know, many residents there, who have never done anything wrong to anyone, against anyone, or upset anyone, have been banned by Linden for nothing else other then their "real life identity". At first, I have just watched this saddened, but recently I have decided that it is something that shall be spoken against and that I can no longer hold back to speak clearly to everyone, because it cannot be any more tolerated.

I shall begin with the most disturbing thing of it all. And that is the way the "underages" are discriminated and mockered for "what they are" inside the services offered by Linden Labs. Banning them from the SL for being "too young" is exactly like throwing a black out of a restaurant for being a "nigger". I have to ask this clearly and out loud here - How does Linden Labs believe they have the right to treat anybody in such a way? Does Linden have any kind of idea how offending and assaulting what they are doing is? Do they realize that these people, even if they are under 18, have a sense of moral, respect, and are able to notice they are directly offended and slapped over the face? I can guarantee you that they do, and even if I am over the age of 18 myself, I take as much offense as everyone to this, and I will be posting my own example later on in this post. I would have much more to say on this part, but everything will slowly be discussed with time. Right now, I am simply making my *first* voice heard.

The second offense, alongside the discrimination and mockery itsself, is the fact that Linden Labs intrude into families, personal lifes, and peoples beliefs, which they have never met, and have absolutely *no right* to judge, offend, or take any decisions for. How does Linden dare to judge someone who they have never met, and tell them if they are "big enough to see porn" or not? That is something that the the person decides with their family, not with some strangers like Linden Labs, and if their family doesn't know, it's still that family's business and private life. Linden has absolutely *no rights* to ask us for information about our real life, nor assault us for what we are. We do not have absolutely any obligation to have to tell them what gender, skin color, age, religion, or anything else we are. By forcing us to do so, Linden Labs is intruding into our personal lifes, and by banning accordingly to this information, they are violently intruding and assaulting into our personal lifes, which cannot be tolerated, even by a minor.

I am completely shocked how far this was able to go, as shocked as I am that nobody has said these things before me now. Also, I would like to make it *very clear* that I am not in any way saying "Introduce minors to porn in Second Life". I do not care who joins SL and what they do there, I only care that they are left alone, and that we are all left alone. I am simply saying that Linden has NO RIGHT to judge who can see adult content or not, and have no right to forcefully ban anyone from SL unless they do something wrong to someone. Minors have the right to decide for theirselves if they can enter the Main/Mature grid or not, as long as they have been warned of what is there. The teen grid is for those who *willingly* want to stay away from such content. But those who don't, have their own rights too. I can actually judge Linden for not posting enough warnings about the content of SL at registration, and not informing new residents that the main grid contains explicit content enough. But once the person has been warned, Linden has no right to decide who can come there and who cannot, because that is our choice, even if we are younger. Its not like they would be turning the gas on or sticking their fingers in the power outlet.

Probably, some ask why I am so revolted by this. Firstly, because I do not tolerate discrimination. And no matter what anyone says, this is discrimination and not a "protection". It is actually the opposite of a protection, it is an assault, and I have decided to post why too; I have been on the Main grid many months before I was 18 (don't bother trying to hunt me now, I am 18 and I have already proved it when I was asked to send you my identity card to get transferred). I have had a great time there, and have never harmed anyone, nor was I ever harmed myself, even if yes, I saw a lot porn there. Still, every time I logged in, I had to feel like a hacker, and like an "outlaw", and every time I was clicking the "Log in" button, I was afraid I could find out my account was deleted. Why? What did I ever do wrong to anyone then? I just joined there to play with everyone else! Why all this, just because of a stupid damn stereotype and some isolated stories of minors that have been feeling a little depressed after seeing adult content. I understand that many want children safe, but believe me that assaulting them in the way Linden does is *far* worse then letting them seeing some 3D porn. And no, I am not lying or trying to make a metaphoric example, I am actually saying the truth, as someone who was an underage there, and was assaulted by linden like this. I am not going so start a drama here, as I don't know anyone on this forum nor is it my kind to do such a thing in public, but I want to make it clear how bad what linden does is, and that they are actually not protecting children, but stressing them, and scaring them they may get removed from their 3d world, and their friends there, just for a stupid stereotype against children and porn.

I am here right now, determined to convince Linden Labs to leave underages alone to join the main grid at their *own will*. I know how many of you are determined to go further with this and believe this is right, but it is not. And I hope that my example and what I have pointed out has proved that this is something very wrong. I know that they have been constrained by the government also, but still I cannot close my eyes to this, and know friends of mine I who I don't even know their age is (we don't worry about things like these in reality) could get banned for absolutely no reason, and that I can't bring other friends of mine to hang with safely. As long as SL is clearly warned against adult content, Linden doesn't hold any responsibility against what the residents do.

Anyway, I am not going to just post this and leave, waiting for someone to say "cool, I agree!". I am determined to start a powerful campaign and protest against this, and will accept anyone who wants to fight against this. I will start with a group, followed by banners, and will firstly make my voice heard well. We want SL to be discrimination and force free, and that includes age discrimination. As a resident that appreciates the wonderful possibilities of sl (many things that the main grid has and the teen one doesn't, which was deserted last I've been there), I am determined to fight and insist with this until the end, even if I have to cause a new storm all over SL. I am not asking for more then simply letting residents, whatever their age is, to decide for theirselves if to join or not, without being judged by Linden. If they are warned against the content there, and that it can be harmful for them, they have the right to decide for theirselves what to do. The worst that can happen is that they see some 3d porn, which they more likely then 99% are already used to, and if not they'll simply just ignore it and watch it like anything else. They won't die or go insane because of that. It's not like somebody rapes them irl or anything, it is just 3D, some sound and images. They can exit/teleport anytime they want to. They have rights like everyone else, and I will stand for that!

I don't know if I can do this here (despire Linden, I actually think what I have the right to do before doing it), but I would like to propose a Linden meeting on this topic to Linden Labs, where this can be discussed with anyone else who agrees. If Linden aren't the monsters they show every day they are, and can understand and supporrt the community, and can simply care for their residents and truly respect them, this shall be discusses with them, and we shall get to an understanding with them. If not, I will simply go on with the protest, in and out of SL, untill the age verification system is destroyed (or stopped from being built), and Linden will stop banning minors just for their age in real life.

That is all that we ask! I deeply hope that this post has been read and understood, especially by Linden, who hopefully opened their eyes more now. If anyone wants to participate in the protest (which I will make sure to start soon), message me in SL, or email me at the address [email]sonichedgehog_hyperblast00@yahoo.com[/email] . I apologise again for the length of this post, and to everyone who I have been rude to, though I hope Linden felt what I did when I was bumped there to have understood it, and that they will listen to this post and what we ask. Thank you for reading this, and I hope that whatever happens, SL will be free again, and *everyone* will have equal rights and receive equal respect from now one. I'll see you all in-world.

Ok, tomorrow I am leaving to the seaside for the next 3 weeks or so. Finally, a happy event for me after all this time. Like I said, I always have my laptop when I can and if I don't I have my mobile which will allow me to be on almost all all of my IM accounts (though of course, I'll be slow on typing). Probably I will upload some photos from the place here while I'm there, though my father is going in a trip to Paris for a few days so I'll have to do only with my mobile till he's back, but anyway I'll do my best to still be online ^^

Sorry once again for being late on posting here, I have been around but usually lj requires longer posts and I have been too tired recently to want to do anything. Been also busy trying to fix things about my destructive urges, not being able to even sleep well at night, being only half sane at the moment, and other things of the kind. Anyway, since I last posted, I guess I would have a lot of things to say. I have also been away from my PC for a little, as when I made my last post here I just came back from a trip to Paris where I stood one week. It was actually kind of boring, as also getting out of the house and being between people made me feel worse for some reason, though I at least had my laptop and could go online through my mobile with it often. Anyway I'm leaving again in the next 12 or so days to the seaside, where I'll be staying for around 2-3 weeks. I'll be taking my laptop too though and I can also browse the web from my mobile, so I will be online while I'm there (also on messenger and irc). I will probably try to be around more often, though since I don't have too many friends on lj who watch this or reply I mostly just post here when I have something important to announce or show to others. Anyway, I hope to see you around.

Ok... I have decided to try to make more friends on LJ so dont worry if I have randomly added you from a search or from groups I am on. Im just looking to find more furs to talk with and to make more friends. Dont worry about adding me back if you want as im not here to do anything bad unless I get badly annoyed by someone. Just that I may be inactive here sometimes but yeah. Ill be posting more around here soon as I am currently tired and recovering from many states of mind I had to go through in the last days >.> but anyway I'll be here so see you around ^^